“How do you feel?”: An attempt to describe the 89 emotions I have regarding leaving in THREE DAYS…

…you got lucky, I’m going to spare you a novel’s length description of the 89 emotions I am experiencing and break it down to these four words: Teach me Thy way.

When I’m feeling overwhelmed or anxious by what lies ahead, Teach me Thy way.

When I act like I can do this on my own, Teach me Thy way.

When I worry about building new relationships, Teach me Thy way.

When I am excited to find myself in a new home, immersed in a new community, Teach me Thy way. 

When I am saddened by the prospect of leaving dearly loved ones for two years, Teach me Thy way. 

When my flesh fails me, as it always does, Teach me Thy way.

When I am crawling in my skin ready to serve and be served, Teach me Thy way. 

When I finally learn to admit that my strength is not enough, Teach me Thy way.

Teach me Thy way, O Lord,
  Teach me Thy way;
Thy gracious aid afford,
  Teach me Thy way.
Help me to walk aright;
More by faith, less by sight;
Lead me with heav’nly light,
  Teach me Thy way.

When doubts and fears arise,
  Teach me Thy way;
When storms o’erspread the skies,
  Teach me Thy way.
Shine through the cloud and rain,
Through sorrow, toil, and pain;
Make Thou my pathway plain,
  Teach me Thy way.

Long as my life shall last,

  Teach me Thy way;

Where’er my lot be cast,
  Teach me Thy way.
Until the race is run,
Until the journey’s done,
Until the crown is won,
  Teach me Thy way.

 

The next blog I write will be from my future motherland, Nairobi, Kenya! I will soon be blogging much more frequently and would love to hear back from you! I will also be the voice of World Concern’s Africa Twitter account, @WCinAfrica as well as my own, @KellyinKenya.

Friends, God is so good. And your love and support is so humbling and such a blessing. Here’s to future blog posts about transformed lives, stories of hardships and challenges, documentaries of empowered communities, photos of the beauty and brokenness of humanity, and pursuing the practice of letting go of my way on a daily basis.

9 thoughts on ““How do you feel?”: An attempt to describe the 89 emotions I have regarding leaving in THREE DAYS…

  1. Whitney

    uh, i am sad and happy and excited and feeling TONS emotions with you as well. Loving you dearly my beautiful friend.

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  2. Junghwa

    Thanks for sharing your vulnerability Kelly. I just cried through this whole blog. I think it’s powerful that you continue to cling onto the Lord and seek for Him to teach you.

    I love you so much! Praying for you sister friend!

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  3. Elaine

    So awesome! I am thrilled that you have said YES to God as He has asked you to go to Africa. Praying that in everything God will be glorified! Jim and I are so proud of you!

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  4. Robin

    YESSS! Your emotions got thrown in a blender. I recommend blasting music and dancing on your bed while packing, preferably while no one else is home. I found this helpful.

    You have been on my heart this whole week. I feel like we have been waiting for this like crazy too!! Lots of love and so excited for you. It will be the best experience of your life.

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  5. pammi

    Kelly,
    You don’t know me, but I stumbled upon your blog while anticipating my own journey to Nairobi. Anxiety gets the better of me as I sift through photos online of what I (and you!) are about to get into. “Teach me Thy way, Lord!” Thank you for that. Prayers from Pennsylvania are yours today! God’s miracles are always in the timing….I marvel at how this blog was put in front of me at the very moment you are leaving from DC.
    I look forward to reading about your first weeks in Kenya on the blog.
    Best,
    Pammi

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